I’m frustrated

I’m not sure how this journal will play out, whether it will be 80% about women and 20% otherwise, but the journey is what this is about, not the beginning.  I was inspired to write about self improvement by http://romeomaldini.wordpress.com/ among others.  I’ve been frustrated with a lot of aspects of my life.  Work.  Home.  Love life (or lack thereof).  I’m gonna run them down in a nutshell then give a little more love life detail.

Home – I live by the beach where there’s always another pretty girl walking by, a wave to surf, and sand to crush under my toes.  Local events and nightlife are nearly constant.  I’m really very fortunate in this way.

Work – I run my friend’s business. I’m way too much of a working manager and don’t get to use my creativity or intelligence enough, although I do enjoy it at some level, getting to learn the ins and outs of running your own business.  Working for myself again is my ideal, just like living by the beach.  Working from the beach is something I’ve done part time before, and let me tell you, it’s sweet.  I miss it so.

Love – I subscribed to a lot of romantic idealistic notions from my childhood.  I believed in chivalry and opening doors for girls and that women deserved these things.  Now I enjoy doing things for anyone in my life, given that they deserve it.  I’ve learned that to do otherwise is to invite getting taken advantage of, or just merely stepped on.  Sometimes, though, it seems like the saying “No good deed goes unpunished” is painfully true.

In moving to the beach a number of years ago I’ve managed to gain some of the social experience that missing out on college and commuting far to high school left me bereft of.  I’ve gone from being ~24 and not having really asked a girl for her phone number or asked a girl out, to being able to maintain a semi-well connected social circle, throw parties, approach girls at random, get instant dates, numbers, relationships,  and have a sex life.

Unfortunately, since my last long term relationship (~3 years) became long distance and eventually ended, I’ve had a lot of difficulty in this area.  Most of my newer friends don’t understand it because they didn’t know me before I moved to the beach.  They think that being social and having some success with girls was/is always my way rather than being fortunate along with some concerted effort.

In the next posts (Girls of 2011) I’ll lay out the good/bad of each love life situation year to date.


~ by aneroidocean on 09/24/2011.

3 Responses to “I’m frustrated”

  1. hey what’s the update?

  2. […] his blog: Love – I subscribed to a lot of romantic idealistic notions from my childhood. I believed in […]

  3. Sounds like you’re doing what I am doing.

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